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"Cakes of Raisin."

Fri, 02 Mar 2012 13:05:15 -0500

Do you ever notice how patient you are, or if you have been kind to people? Are you jealous of things people have… or are you boastful? Have you been arrogant, or insisted on your own way? Do you resent certain people for things they have done, and do you hold onto things for too long? Or are you able to bear all things, believe all things, hope in all things, and endure all things?

I need more love in my life, that is for sure. I hold onto things, I get offended, I don’t forgive as much as I should, and I’m impatient. My love is tainted and conditional. But there is such a thing as perfect love, and I have dwelled in it so many times that I can’t count how many times I have received it. It’s one of a kind. His name is Jesus.

There’s a story in the Bible about a guy named Hosea. He is told to go find a wife. Lucky for him, right? Not right. In fact, God tells him to go find a whore for a wife. A whore who cheats, lies, and feels unloveable… talk about a challenge. He follows through and finds Gomer. After she runs away what seems like countless times, the Lord tells him to go find her. Again. “And The Lord said to me, ‘Go again, love a woman who is loved by another man and is an adulteress, even as the Lord loves the children of Israel, though they turn to other gods and love cakes of raisins.’ So I bought her for fifteen shekels of silver and a homer and a lethech of barley. And I said to her, ‘You must dwell as mine for many days. You shall not play the whore, or belong to another man; so I will also be to you.” Hosea 3:1-3

It’s my favorite love story at the moment. Pure and simple… he was committed to her, even though he had so many reasons to give up on her. I am in awe of his character, but even more in awe of Gomer’s character. What made her so resistant? Why didn’t she just rest in his love? What was her problem, was she mentally ill? Seems like it! She chose her “cakes of rasin” over her husband who loved her almost unconditionally.

We choose things and objects and people over the Lord every day. What is wrong with us? Are we mentally ill, or are we just a little slow? How have we not figured out that He loves us unconditionally? We should want to please Him and rest His undoubtedly perfect love! Why do we choose our cakes of raisin instead of our Father?

What is your cake of raisin? Why do you choose that over the joy of the Lord? It could be as simple as what you do with your time, a hardened heart, or an attitude of unthankfulness. Whatever it is, is it worth holding onto when you could be living in the light of His perfect presence? Choose the bread of life over raisin bread. He is waiting for you to pick Him.

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Thu, 18 Aug 2011 12:53:40 -0400

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Hi Beki, did I miss a "homecoming" get together for you? I have been following your blog. It sounds like you were truly touched by the people there. I am sure they were with you as well! Keep in touch.

Irene Kilstrom

Mon, 15 Aug 2011 22:22:53 -0400

Hello Irene!

I didn’t have a formal get together, but I would love to tell you all about the trip! Let me know if you would like to do that. My email is bekiariel@gmail.com

Thank you for contacting me :)

-Beki Morrison

Home Sweet Home

Thu, 11 Aug 2011 20:54:47 -0400

The question is, where is my home? For now, my home is here on the Central Coast of California. Beautiful weather, beautiful people, and the beautiful nature is is surrounded by. But what about my home in Cambodia? There is no way I could forget all that I just experienced just one week ago. It would be too hard to forget that, I would have to detach half of my heart. God did great things in me while I was away teaching, but I am not done learning.

My point is that I am where God wants me to be. God can use me in literally any situation, so I my as well make the most of every opportunity I have to share Christ’s love. Whether it be the person in front of me at Starbucks, the grumpy regular that walks into your work everyday at the same time, or the man you cat-sit for, there is always an opportunity to love. (I seriously do cat-sit…). Above all, love. And love genuinely. Easier said than done, I know.

Since I’ve been back, I have gotten into the groove of things, it’s such a blessing that it is summer and things are moving quite slowly. In only a few days I will start my 5 classes at Cuesta College and then life will be hectic once again. I am so excited to see what God has planned for me at this time in my life. I am growing in so many different areas of my life that I don’t even know how to process anything. I’m not even sure what to write down! Okay well there is one thing..

For the past four years of my life I have been praying for boldness. Maybe that us an understatement, it’s more like I have been begging for boldness! All I have to say is that God answers prayers, and on HIS timing. I can’t believe how bold I have been this past month. God has really just given me a love for people, I am so blessed to feel this way! Going to Cambodia has taught me to realize that everyone is going through a hard time, or has gone through a hard time. Everyone struggles and is in need of a Saviour and a friend. It is unhuman to not.

It’s hard to not be in Cambodia right now, but I know I am at home for a purpose. I’m not quite sure what that purpose is, but I know that it is what the Lord wants, so I will continue to seek Him in every decision I make! I can’t wait to see what He does with me. Thank you Lord!

*Please continue to pray for Cambodia. Pray for their corrupt government, and for their to be an upbringing of young people to take over government positions and lead the country in a positive way. Pray for the Lord to work powerfully in the Kmai people, and that He dwells richly in their land. Pray for Srey Hoy and all the other children at Haley’s House, and for the people who dedicate their time there day in and day out. Pray for them to be filled continually so that they can pour out as well. Thank you Lord for the missionaries you send throughout the world. Let your word be heard and taken to heart!

Lea Heuy :(

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 11:02:59 -0400

Goodbyes are so not fun. Today was one of the worst days, and one of the best. It was the worst because I did not expect to leave heartbroken. I anticipated leaving and saying goodbye to a few good friends, and leave feeling accomplished. I can’t believe how wrong I was. Today when I said goodbye to my new friends Srey Hoy and her sister, I felt too much. I don’t let myself love deeply, and by God’s grace I could not help falling so deeply in love with these children from Haley’s House Orphanage. At the beginning of the trip when we went to Haley’s House, I was prepared to be loved. I was ready to be treated like a superstar or a queen. I was ready to love on children and touch their lives, and then come back home and tell everyone how much love these children have, and how much more I need to give. But I am leaving with something much deeper. One thing I was not prepared for was to leave with a broken heart, and a broken heart that will not forget these precious moments from God. I was not prepared to fall in love.

Her name is Srey Hoy, and she is 11 years old. She is the girl that stole my heart, broke it, and will keep it forever. Hoy has an amazing story. Her and her sister were raised with their mother, who sold them into trafficking only a few months ago. Their aunt redeemed them and then found Haley’s House orphanage and placed them there. The girls have been there now a month, and are already feeling Christ’s love. They know that Jesus is their Father, and loves them unconditionally. And even though I know The Lord has a good and perfect plan for them, it’s hard to not want to steal them! Today as I was preparing to say goodbye to them, Srey Hoy looked into my eyes and said to me, “keep me?”. A few minutes later as we were really saying goodbye, she says to me “I can come home with you, mam.” My heart still hurts. Of course I want to take her home, and of course I want to keep her. In a letter I wrote to her I told her how beautiful she is, and that she is a daughter of the greatest King, which means she is a princess, and she is also my sister. And I also wrote in her language that I love her, and at the end of our time I made sure that she knew that was true. With tears welling up in our eyes, it was hard to actually let go of her hand. One last moment I will remember is her looking at me straight in the eyes, grabbing my face, and telling me to smile. You know it’s bad when you have to have an 11 year old console you. Needless to say, I sure did leave a huge piece of my heart in Cambodia. I miss her already.

So, now I’ll get to the part when I tell you why it was the best day. It was the very best day because I know how God wants us to love. He wants us to love to deeply that it hurts… He wants us to love like He does. How can we pray “Lord, break my heart for what breaks Yours,” and be surprised when we are filled with emotion and passion for His precious creations. Imagine what the world would look like if we truly loved. The truth is that everyone has a story, and no one can resist genuine unconditional love because we all need it. God showed me his passion for His people these past six weeks, and what it means to be in community. Follow His voice everyday, and you will be in His will. Today was the best day because God answered my prayer. The goal of this trip was to experience whatever God wanted me to experience, to give love, and show me more of who He created me to be. I know I was made to love. We all are. If God is love, and we were made in His likeness, than that is what we should strive to be. Love until it hurts, and then love more.

I don’t want to leave. Like I said in an earlier post, there is just so much to be done here, and so many people that I love. How can I leave when my job is not finished? I don’t want to lose this passion when I get back home. Lord, please be the fire to my flame… I don’t want to forget.

“Let love be genuine” Romans 9:1

Here is another beautiful quote :

“To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.” – Arundhati Roy

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Thu, 28 Jul 2011 12:12:34 -0400

Taking it all in..

Thu, 28 Jul 2011 11:33:29 -0400

That’s what I’m doing. Breathing deeply and soaking everything up like a sponge. I only have 5 more days here, the time has flown right by me. Now is the time to catch up on all my emailing and bog posting, so here it goes..

Let me just begin by saying I have fallen head over heels in love. For the past couple weeks we have been hanging out a an orphanage called Haley’s House, it has been one of my favorite ministries that I’ve been involved in here. The children are amazing. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am taking a few home with me! I am so sad to say goodbye to them all. I have made dear friends, and a few of my “cling ons” names are Srey Hoy (Srey means girl in Kmher), Srey Mom, and Mary. They are gorgeous, and have a love for the Lord that I want. They love and serve Him in everything they do, it is so inspiring. I can’t help but want to take them home with me, and it does NOT help when they call you “Mam” but really it sounds like mom… and then they go and add a “y” so it really sounds like mommy! It really breaks my heart. Even though there is a language barrier, I am just melted when they look into my eyes and just give me love. I am amazed at how much they are able to love, it makes me want to pour into their lives that much more. Tomorrow is possibly the last day I will see them, so I am making all of the girls (about 12) crocheted headbands and bracelets. I want them to realize how beautiful they are, and not just on the outside, but there is even more beauty on the inside! The Lord knows their needs. If you are interested and want to find out more on how you can support these children, or just want to pray for them by name you can go to http://www.haleyshouse.org/newsite/index.php. The Lord has given me a heart for the orphaned, and maybe someday I will have the blessing and opportunity of bringing a precious child from Haley’s House into my family. I know that is a big prayer, but I know a God who is in that kind of business. Thats not to say that the children there are not being taken care of, because it is actually the complete opposite.. they are in the chosen hands of God. The people who volunteer and are staff are amazing, and I am so happy and thankful that God is leading them to do His will! What a blessing.

So, all these goodbyes are hard. It is so wonderful that I have gotten so close to all of my new friends here, but I am so sad that I have to leave them.. plus I am horrible with goodbyes. Tomorrow is the last day of school at Logos International, and I have to say goodbye to my wonderful friends Joe, Linda, Sophorn, Sato, and all of the other wonderful people who work there. The principle (Dan Hine) has been so hospitable, as well as the “office ladies” who help us out with virtually every one of our day to day needs, including trying to explain to our cook what “raw chicken” is! Haha, that was fun. I am also sad to say goodbye to all of my students, who have done so well in my dance classes. Tomorrow they are preforming the dance I taught them, and the song is called “Identity” by Lecrae. It is great seeing how comfortable they have become in their own skin throughout these few weeks… God is good.

All this being said, I am excited to go back home. I have a new experience under my belt, as well as a new view on life. I don’t need half of the things I claim as necessities, and I sure don’t need more than 4 different outfits(though it is really quite hard to mix and match after about 3 weeks of the same clothes…). My goal, as I said in a previous post, is to think missionally about everything I do. That is God’s purpose for my life. I would love to come back to Cambodia, but if that is one of the only things I learned here, I know that God has done a great work in me because I feel like that is key.

More pictures to come!!

In Christ,

Beki :)

Day Twenty and counting

Sun, 17 Jul 2011 06:50:26 -0400

I’m sitting near a place called Russian Market, in an outdoor coffee shop called “Koffee Corner”. I love Cambodia, and Russian Market is my favorite market so far! There are so many tiny little trinket, clothing, knives, jewelry, handmade crafts, and all kinds of other sorts of things to buy for very very cheep prices. It’s so fun to bargain with the shop keepers, I’m almost professional at it… watch out San Luis Obispo swap meet! Today I bought a really awesome side bag for 2 dollars, a shirt for 1.50, and a present for a friend for a dollar…anyways it’s great for getting amazing deals. I really enjoy this part of Cambodia, maybe it is just the ambience of this cute coffee shop but I think I actually do like it.

This morning my team and I went to church at Shalom Logos(at the school where we teach), and the pastor talked about submitting to others, and how important this is in every single relationship you will ever have, including the relationship you have with Christ. I’m learning something new everyday, and re learning very important life lessons as well.

God is at work in peoples hearts here, as He is everywhere. Not only in the Kmai people, but in the hearts of all of the members of our team. Our teammate Katelyn was invited into our Tuk Tuk drivers home the other day to meet with his family. Him, his wife, and his soon to be 3 children live in a house the size of our living room here. They have no bed, no kitchen, and only a mat to sleep on which is shared between all of them. Luckily, they were kind enough to offer her a tarantula… a delicacy here! Getting to know this family has been an amazing experience, and genuinely an honor. They bless us so much. Our team is in awe of how much faith they have in the Lord. It makes you think.

I have two more weeks in Cambodia, but I am already dreading going back home. There is so much that I love here, and so many people I have met and gotten close to. Including my friend Sam, who got baptized today at school. She has a heart for the Lord, and my prayer for her is that she continues to stay motivated and help with the movement of young people here in the country, which she is already a part of. I know the Lords plan for her life is outstanding, and I can’t believe I get to be a part of encouraging her in that. It is going to be so hard to even think about leaving here. That being said, don’t think for a second that I don’t miss my friends and family unexplainably! I miss you all.

Lastly, I’ve come to the conclusion that it is easy love people when you are in the mission mindset. I wonder what my life would look like if I actually viewed my whole life to be a mission. My mission is to point others to Christ, which means I don’t need to leave to do that. The Lord is doing great things inside of me, things that I can’t even explain.

Lord, help me to love genuinely. All the time.

Romans 12:9

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil, cling to what is good.”

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Sun, 10 Jul 2011 06:14:48 -0400

Pleasant Pheasant

Gold.

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"Cakes of Raisin."

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Nienie Wah :)

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My babes, they are beautiful.

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lodt yesss

Hi Beki, did I miss a "homecoming" get together for you? I have been following your blog. It sounds like you were truly touched by the people there. I am sure they were with you as well! Keep in touch. Irene Kilstrom

Home Sweet Home

Lea Heuy :(

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Taking it all in..

Day Twenty and counting

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Hi Beki, did I miss a "homecoming" get together for you? I have been following your blog. It sounds like you were truly touched by the people there. I am sure they were with you as well! Keep in touch.

Irene Kilstrom